i feel this swirl of things around me

everyone should just be happy..

[edit] i have waves and waves of rambling jumbled up notions and thoughts in my mind. why do we keep hurting each other? is it so damn fun. how do ppl become so vindictive, so cruel? is it by character or environment? i'm feeling incredibly removed from it all. maybe because i isolate myself from stuff? shrugs. but its only a temporary thing. escapism always is.

we plan our whole lives for the future. we save money, study hard, work hard and do so many things with the future in mind. i used to be so caught up in the past. and now i can finally see the present & future. but i have always this nagging thought.. what if one day you don't have that future anymore? what would you do. how would you change the way you live your life. what if you waited your entire lifetime for that one thing to make things right, and it never appears. do you crash and burn then? hmms. i wish i had the courage to live entirely for the moment. [/edit]